Remembering Waiting For Our Baby

This blurb is from my journal back in the day before I knew about blogging. Since we are into the month of December I always remember waiting for Maizie to be born and how excited I was. It seems like such a long time ago. Tonight Maizie had her first sleep over at a friend's house. She is growing up! I feel happy and sad all at the same time. Before she left she said, "I will miss you while I am gone Momma." So sweet! Joe looks so young in this photo. Here is the excerpt from my journal......
On December 9th our adoption counselor called and left a message that she knew the sex of the baby. We played phone tag and I thought I was going to lose my mind. Pure torture. We are having a baby girl! Maizie Marie! I am so excited. I still feel a deep level of uncertainty. Every day I imagine what the birth mother is doing and I feel like I can't wait another day. We are so close to the due date. I can't focus on much of anything. I am a mess. I feel separated from someone I all ready love. Is that normal? Am I putting all my eggs in one basket? This feeling is difficult to accept since I know the birth mother could change her mind. Our hearts could be broken and we would have to accept that. I know that God will get us through this waiting.